Millstone

"Tell me why I'm discontented
Will I die without the details in my hands?
I feel these vines surrounding my heart,
I fear I'm moving at a slower pace again
Tell me how this all unfolds

I can't find the secret to survive
To grow old safe and sound
life is sifting through like the sands in the hourglass
There's not a moment to relive my time and space
There's not a moment to undo anything

How could I have been this careless,
I fear I'm locked inside another cage again
Shake me from these torturous dreams where
I keep screaming
Can't see how to overcome"
 - excerpt from Millstone by Eisley

 I'm tired of feeling alone.
Of feeling that at the core... at the root of it all
we are all just alone,
 traveling this route until we're taken by death

 I found the book you read
So I read it and tried to think
what you were thinking
picture what you pictured

 Did you see yourself?
I tried to see you. It wasn't you though.
 You didn't die that death.
 I remember the pain you felt after losing your best friend.
You were so lost trying to lose yourself even more
 We were afraid for you.

I was terrified. I was selfish.

I wanted to fix you but maybe you weren't broken
maybe you were meant to show us something teach us all a lesson.
 That love isn't beating ourselves broken
but unconditional.

 I love you. I miss you. I shall see you in my dreams.