I'm trying to get better

to get through this

to be the person 

you need me to be

but I don't know

how much more I can take

On my knees

I look to the dark sky

begging for more time

for another chance

just something

to make thing change

but it's all for nothing

I know what

needs to be done

but I am hesitating

I am watching

you 

hold me together 

as I let you fall apart.  

I am selfish.

I want to let go.

I want to scream and cry and fight and utterly destroy myself to get back what we once had

but I am exhausted 

and I know

that it is all for nothing.

I just need to pick up my own pieces.

If only it were so easy.

Story Elements

Because sometimes

words are not enough

to speak the volumes

that exist between us

within us

And sometimes

words ignore

that the main character

is falling apart. 

Green

Things have been changing
all around me

I grew complacent with
where we were in our lives
I loved you.
I trusted in the normalcy
that we had fallen into.

And I guess
nothing can ever
happen the same way twice
and nothing
can ever stay stagnant
but I thought maybe we could
live within our castle walls

Safe.
In stasis.

But we've changed.

Life rearranged.

We're different people
than we once were.

I look at you
with sober eyes
wondering
how we got here
how we came so far.

You came down
from your high
and looked back
at me
with the same green eyes
that have pierced my
soul
so many times
and wondered
how
time got away
from us.

And as we fall
into each other
at the end of each day
we cling
tooth
and nail
to the hope
that we are enough.
For each other.
For ourselves.

Happy

Because when it came down to it

I knew we couldn't stay as we were

I knew we couldn't exist in 

a stasis that fluctuated 

like the raging seas

as dark skies and

roaring thunder approaches.

Because when it came down to it

I knew we could never be happy.