Unity

 Each 

and every 

day

we grow older

Our wrinkles grow deeper

Our hair thins

greys

and falls out

Each 

and every 

day

We grow

My heart

aches

possessed 

by this phantom tugging

My body

stretched 

leaving a map

across my skin

Your eyes

Lingering at the sight

of our future

growing before us.

Each

and every day

we grow

older

We grow 

towards a hope 

that maybe

we can create

A legacy far 

better than the one

that was bestowed 

upon us.

We grow 

a dream

that we are forever

united.

Don't you worry.

She told me,

In hushed tones

"Don't you worry."

"Can't you see?

Everything is fine!"

She told me.

Her spirit was quite free

-that I must admit.

"Don't you worry?"

While I am here, picking up the debris

"It will be okay."

She told me.

Now she's just a memory

constantly whispering,

"Don't you worry?"

-The last words that she told me. 

Dim to the Background

Like an afterthought scribbled in the margins,

I sit on the fringe 

- my feet dangling 

above the concrete abyss

My Darkness

slips through me

Fluttering out of 

my wounds

and my words

left

unspoken.

As clear as 

the late June,

velvety auburn 

skies

The memories.

Our 

Memories.

So vivid

and yet

fading

Drift slowly

down

like snow

into the pitch

hell

before me.  

Twould be

so easy to reach out

To catch them

one by one

and then

sort them 

one by one

into the holed-pockets

in my mind

and yet

I am paralyzed

The monsters in my mind

have cornered me

-Their knives

in my back.

-Their fingers

sink into my skin,

nails peeling 

my layers. 

Lifelessly,

my muted eyes

gaze beyond the black

expanding before me

to the vacant sky that looms

above.

This canyon of despair

cradling me

as I dissolve 

like sand poured

into an 

open palm

-back into 

myself. 

My memories.

Our

Memories.

Dim to the background.

Alone

I just needed to tell you

from the bottom of my heart

from the depths of 

my sunken chest

that 

I love you

beyond reason

beyond control

You are all

that I have

and all 

that I am

~

Your breath

on 

my neck

as we lie 

together

in simple

harmony

~

I have never

felt

so whole

and yet

I have never

felt

so 

empty

so 

alone.

~

I wonder if this will be forever

But I don't think 

it is something 

I would

mind.

Sinking

Things

have 

been 

difficult

to say

the

least.

To say the most

would take

too many words

and would 

leave us both

feeling

rather 

uncomfortable.

But 

I want you 

to know

that I am 

fine.

Just.

Fine.

I am

sinking

deeper

into

myself.

I hardly recognize 

my own reflection

My voice

irritates

even myself.

How is it

that it is myself

whom I hate

the most?

I don't 

know.

I wish I had an answer.

I 

keep

sinking

deeper

into

myself

and I am calling

screaming

for help

but my cries

fall

on 

deaf ears.

I hold

myself

close

in 

the darkness

of the night

and wonder

how 

much longer

I can 

hold on.

I am tired.

so 

tired.

Sinking

deeper.

Falling

Farther

From

Myself.

I-I can't

I can't stand

I can't stand myself.

Out of Place. Out of Time.

 I am crawling

out of my skin

trying

to feel human

or something

close.

I am crawling out

of my 

skin

with a desire

to disappear 

within myself.

I am crawling out of my 

skin

feeling

so 

incredibly

out of 

place.

out of time. 

Silence

 Numb

Disbelief.

The pit in my stomach;

Heavy.

I shrink

into the silence.