I am strange.
I do not deny that.

When I look up towards the night sky
I see not simply stars
I see another life.
Another time.
Through the eyes
of someone I do not know.

I see crystal shards of tears
frozen like a memory torn from my hands
Destroyed before me
is a looking glass.
A time in which I will never know.

In my dreams
I hear their whispers
Between green trees twisting and turning
leading me down a path
of emblazoned fear.

Dirt scratches between my toes
a smooth silk touched with scathing spurs
drawing blood with each step.

I wish to run
but the pain is too much.

As if jerked back from a nightmare
I awaken
knowing of a life
I once lived.

-Silence-
Falls over me
Like the comfort of a heavy rain
pouring down
enveloping my very being.

I am strange.
I do not deny it.

I will live a legend
and die unknown.

And just like that
Something in me snapped

There are many things to be confused about
-to sit and ponder about
-to think, and ask yourself...
"What in the world is going on?"

I sit here and can only imagine
that things will get easier.

Maybe they will...
maybe they will not.

Only time
will tell

Legacy

Everyday is a blessing.

Some would say that I'm moving on,
but I don't think that is true.
I am moving forward,
however,
I will never move on.
There is a difference,
you know.

I still think back to his red hair
Blue eyes
and fair skin

Sometimes that's all I can see
is some weird compilation
of who he used to be.

I'm not one to talk about the afterlife
These days I have ideas
and I have dreams
but to share them feels
too obscene.

Some days I can make it through
with hardly a thought
Others,
it is my only thought.

Every life is a blessing.

My life,
His life.

We all serve a purpose,
and I know the legacy he passed on for me...
but what about you?

To follow

Like a slow moving current
Down a winding path
I follow

The road
-I do not know
And yet
I will follow

Our hearts are aligned
Like stars in the far off distance
Shining delicately
Magnificently
But must exist in some other time

You shine across the galaxy
And still
I follow.

And each day I watch
Petal by petal
My soul is exposed
Crying out to be picked
By you
And only you.
"He loves me, he loves me not"

My world seems so still these days
We have settled
His light feeds me
As I drink in the love
Bestowed upon me
"He loves me"
And still
I follow

Under Your Spell

Take me up into your arms
like water engulfing a rain drop
You complete me.

The sun kissing me
gently
nervously
Like our first kiss
And I am falling head over heels
Reaching and searching for you
Anywhere
and everywhere.

Take me up into your heart
like the final piece of a puzzle
You were all that I have ever needed.

My dreams
are singing sweet melodies
Rocking me into a deep sleep
where I dream of you.
Only you.

My sweet boy,
It was always you.

"I could fly, on the wings of my heart
deep inside, I've been falling apart
Love
There's a magic in you
and I'll be under your spell
Love"

-Love by Blindfire.

Warmth

The only way to fight off the chill

is to throw myself into the fire.