Heaviness

I wanted to say something
Profound

I wanted to say the feelings that
rest uneasily
in my locked chest.

I wanted you to feel
what I felt

I wanted you
to understand.

Instead,
we lie awake at night
wondering
if the other
is the reason why
we remain alive.

So often,
I find myself sinking
into the undertow.
Drowning
under waves
that I cannot see
but I can feel.

So often,
You find yourself alone
with no one to listen
as you fight
with the demons
hidden in the dark
recesses of your mind.

I don't mind.
I don't mind.

But is this
really what it takes
for us to survive?

I wanted to tell you something
so
profound
that you would see
the world in the same light
that I see you

beautiful

We are worlds apart
despite the heaviness of
your breathes
landing softly
upon my lips