Sometimes...

Sometimes I feel like I could just collapse.  Like I could melt away with time and it would cease to matter.  I often wonder why I feel like this.  I lay awake at night thinking, debating with myself why I should keep breathing if the pain screams so loud.  Other times, I hear nothing.  Nothing at all.  Not even my own breathing, as I slip into unconsciousness and must remind myself that it is what I must do.  It feels... unnatural.  As if nothing of my own being truly matters.  I am not depressed.  I am alone.  As we all are at the end of our days.